To kick off this blog, I figured it was best to list things you should know about me.
Because these things are the driving force behind what I’ll turn this blog into: a way to track my goals–mostly business, but personal too; sometimes they’re the same–and work on getting somewhere.
1. I’m a workaholic
Owning my own business has only made this worse. If I don’t stop myself, I work seven days a week. But I still don’t make enough to move out of my parents’ house.
2. I have an addictive personality
I check my phone without thinking constantly, I keep alcohol at my boyfriend’s place, and avoiding food temptation means not buying it…or eating it until it’s gone so it’s not an issue anymore.
3. I think too much/bleed ideas
Bout of Books, On a Book Bender, The Path of Least Revision, this blog, ebooks, style guides, and fiction writing. There’s more, but I can’t remember.
I’m also pretty sure I’ve read articles about how over-thinkers are more prone to depression. I believe it, because it’s true in my case.
4. I’m a recovering perfectionist
Perfectionism is probably one of the worst diseases you can have. It leads to all kinds of issues like lowered self-esteem, depression, and procrastination.
Perfectionism STUNTS growth and prevents you from tasking risks. As a perfectionist, if it can’t be perfect, you won’t do it.
Learning to let myself suck is hard. But I’m doing it. Slowly. Maybe. About half the time.
5. I have social anxiety and a dash of general anxiety for good measure
I don’t really have friends, at least that live close, so the social anxiety isn’t much of an issue. The general anxiety is often directly related to how well I take care of myself.
6. I’m terrible at taking care of myself
I forget to eat, I don’t exercise enough, and I tend to say, “Fuck it” and eat my emotions. Or hormones. Mostly my hormones. I also flat-out don’t care that I’m not taking care of myself sometimes and won’t do it unless prodded otherwise.
7. I’m incredibly self-aware
Sometimes this is a good thing. Sometimes it leads to self-loathing. It often just leads to me getting frustrated when others don’t understand their problems the same way I do mine. (And therefore are clueless or whine about theirs.)
And sometimes I just push people to accomplish their own dreams. Because we often just need an outside perspective. Or a kick in the pants.
This is my attempt to kick myself in my pants.